So I found out last Friday that my contract at Vicon:House of Moves will end at the beginning of October. I had some expectation that this might happen, but it was only a little while before it was actually confirmed. From what I know, it’s because of the whole situation where a company can’t keep me on as a contractor for too long without hiring me and they won’t hire me. So I’m back on the streets again (well, not the streets really).

To be honest, it’s a bit frightening and exciting at the same time. I feel like I’m full of contradictions. I’m happy to move on to something new and in some ways have been looking forward to it for a while now. Still, I have to keep beating down the worry that keeps cropping up concerning what I’m actually going to do once unemployed. I’m looking forward to being home again with my friends and family in San Diego, but I know I’ll miss a lot of great coworkers that I’ve met at HOM. It’s that whole experience of wanting to move forward to bigger and better things but hating having to leave the comfort of the ordinary. Every time I talk to coworkers or drive down the road back to my place, I think “this will soon be over.” And that’s a sad thought. It’s not always easy to look forward to an uncertain future. But I’m doing my best.

Then there’s the whole dealing with other people’s opinion part of it. This probably doesn’t matter as much to most folks, but it has a big impact on me. I get the feeling that some people are really looking forward to my unemployment because it means I’ll be back in San Diego with them again. Their excitement makes me excited. On the other hand, I feel all this pressure to go out and get a new job as soon as humanly possible. I try not to let it get to me, but it does. I mean, for crying out loud, this one hasn’t even ended yet! Now of course I want (and need) a new job, but I don’t feel like I should be constantly frantic and anxious about it. I know I’m not the type of person to be content just lazing about, unemployed, leaching off of others. So I’m really not all that worried about falling into that situation. Not to mention, the last time I was unemployed (basically for the same reason) I had a new job within two weeks time.

I think a lot of people forget that the Lord is faithful. Perhaps they say it, but they don’t really, truly believe it in the practical sense. But I know it is true. Sure, I haven’t stumbled upon desperate times where my life is at stake and God pulled me out, but I’ve been through enough to see His faithfullness in all things and I can’t wait to see what He’s going to do next.

So I finally got the majority of my Arizona pictures uploaded online. You can find all six pages of them right here. If you haven’t used the Mac Gallery before, they’ve got a variety of viewing options that you can select at the bottom of the page. Try them out and see which one works best for you.